Justifiable

Updating for the sake of updating even though I should be in bed.

But, on the drive into work today, who do I see on his motorcycle as I'm turning onto Karcher? And who had to fight the urge to swerve and/or flip him off? No, I'm not looking to go to prison for vehicular manslaughter. But I said some things anyone who can read lips would've picked up. And then I couldn't help but laugh because I'm so much happier and better off without him. I mean really. What took me so long to get over him? Why didn't I want to let go? Oh. Yeah. That whole thing about marriage being forever and stuff like that. Silly me. Couldn't pay me to go back now. I don't even know if I'd do it the same way if I had the chance. At one point, I would've. But if things were going to turn out the same way … maybe if I knew I'd end up in my current relationship, but that's the only way. There needs to be light at the end of the tunnel, not two months of me wishing for death or wallowing in self-pity. Nothing is worth that kind of pain again. I'm still amazed at how far I've come. I just hope I'm not in some kind of freakish denial. I don't think I am.

Anyway, despite being pretty tired, I'm still in a decent mood. I'll still be tired in the morning, but I shouldn't have to put in an 11-hour day again. If I get home at a decent hour, that leaves the evening for … ? Oh I wish. But hey, I've got enough happy thoughts to tide over until the weekend. Heh. Maybe.

Posted: Tue - October 12, 2004 at 03:13 AM