Oh yeah

Thought train derailed after talking to an insurance agent for 30 minutes.

In addition to the rules I have for myself, I’ve come up with some for people who wish to be a part of my life.

1. Do not lie to me. Plain and simple. Don’t do it. I’ll fucking write you off. Tell the truth, no matter what. Sure, issues may arise out that, but that’s stuff that can be worked through. Withholding information from me will do nothing for you except make me lose trust. If you lie to me repeatedly, fucking forget it. If I stick to that, I won’t let things get that far.

2. Keep your promises. If you make a promise, fucking keep it. I don’t care about your bullshit excuses. If you have a good reason why you can’t do something, that is different than an excuse. Don’t make a promise and then tell me, “Oh, I changed my mind” because you’re a big pussy and can’t go through with something. Do that, and you’re an automatic zero in my book. Good luck digging yourself out of that. Recent events have forced me to take a pretty hard-line stance on this. People who are my friends should have no problem with this.

Ultimately, this all comes down to honesty and trust. It’s not a lot to ask. I’m to the point now where I’ll be brutally honest because I don’t give a flying fuck. Life is too short to pussyfoot around and bullshit. Fuck that. That’s not who I am, it’s not what I’m about. I frequently say too much, but if I say how I feel, then that’s how I feel. It may be awkward for a bit if I’ve made some great disclosure, but that will pass in time. Don’t worry about hurting my feelings. You can’t possibly hurt me more than Zero did (yes, I have decided to call him that now). Honesty and trust can be uncomfortable. But anything worth having will take work, be that friendship or something romantic. It doesn’t matter with me. You fuck me over on either of those, and I will be very unforgiving. It comes down to what I have invested in it, and future gains. I will be selfish about this. I will not be fucked over again.

I will not be fucked over again.