Clarification

Let me make this very clear. I don’t hate Tom. I don’t feel anything toward him any more. Certainly not today. I’m indifferent. Hate would require energy. I sure as hell don’t feel any love. God no. He’s just another person I need to interact with occasionally. Yeah, there's more to it than that, but I won't let there be.

Yes, I’m sure I’m kidding myself. I’m sure this is some other form of denial. It’s better than giving in to the rage and anger that is very close to the surface right now.

It’s like the song said. “I feel numb.”