Who knows

I should be happy, should be feeling good about myself right now. Got good things going at work, feeling pretty good physically, looking good too (or so my friends keep telling me). And yet, things suck. Well, maybe they don’t suck. But they aren’t where I want them to be.

I’m not sure what I expected out of the various relationships I’ve been working on. I’m slightly disappointed with my one romantic prospect. I’m slightly disappointed with another prospect because I’m pretty sure I’m not what this person is looking for, which I guess is his loss. I can handle being friends, which is probably where it needs to stay. I just can’t help thinking he’s missing out, and I wish there was something I could do about it. We’re probably going to go out again this weekend. I hope I get a chance to talk to him without his friends being around. I may call him tomorrow. I don’t know yet. A lot depends on how it goes with the ex tomorrow.

Yeah, go figure. The one romantic prospect, I’m not sure if that’s what I really want. The one where there’s little chance of romance is the one I want to pursue.

Then there’s the whole concept that maybe right now isn’t the time to get involved with anyone. That’s the one option I don’t really want to consider. Physically, I’m all for getting involved. Socially, I’m all for it. Emotionally, well, that’s the wild card. I have a few people I can go to for emotional support. Of the two prospects, I know one will be there for me no matter what. The other, I think he’d be there if I needed him.

I’m not making sense any more. It’s time for sleep. I need to get up at a decent hour so I can work out.