The Karma Bunny ... and you

Letting go is difficult. We're a possessive, materialistic society and we like hanging on to the good, the bad, the useless.

We cling to memories like so many useless threads, hoping for a lover's return, praying for revenge, wallowing in bitterness. We waste energy churning up scenarios, playing what-if, trying to tip the cosmic scales in our favor.

This is no crisis of faith; I've got fucking faith -- faith in myself, first and foremost and faith in those who love me and proven they'll be there for me. What I don't have is forgiveness; it's a waste of time because what's done is done. You can't take it back, you can't right a wrong. It's in the past. The good thing to know, and the bright side to all this, is that I don't hate because it's a wasted emotion. It's a waste of time.

With all of this "faith" and unforgiveness is the task of taking the high road and being the better person. You have to believe that by taking the high road, things will sort themselves out. Don't give into hate. Isn't that what Yoda said?

I believe in revenge. I don't believe I need to be the person to carry it out, however. This is where the Karma Bunny comes in.

KB works a little like the Easter Bunny. He keeps track of who's paid their dues and who needs a swift kick in the balls. In my world, he looks like Hazel from the Watership Down movie. Or he could be the Velveteen Rabbit in the video adaptation narrated by Meryl Streep. Anyway. He's big, he's brown and don't fuck with him.

I've asked the Karma Bunny to make his delivery to CWB rather than my ex; his established pattern of behavior will fuck him in his fat ass and I'm good with that. Don't lecture me about bitterness. I've accepted that I have the capacity to be very bitter but have done a better job of controlling it. This is the time of year where those emotions start running pretty close to the surface.

In any even, KB has a BIG delivery for CWB for what she did to Scott and what she continues to do to the boys. That's why it's worth it to take the high road. If you start fucking with his mojo, he'll kick you in the balls faster than you can say "ro-sham-bo."

KB is at his best when his delivery is a complete surprise. Like where he was at 3:30 a.m. on Sunday. Just so happened a former boss was driving while intoxicated and happened to get caught by BPD. So he got arrested for misdemeanor DUI. He'll be lucky if he keeps his jobs. Certainly, it's bad luck/karma to revel in the misery of others. I'm not doing that. In my world, this individual got what was coming to him. You make your own luck. He made a bad choice. Now he gets to pay.

I know a lot of people who owe the Karma Bunny. I think I was due as well, but it's hard to look at that as a bad thing since I'm with Scott now (best. guy. evar.). You'll pay in this life, or the next, or the next. I prefer to get this sorta thing out of the way. I hate doing things over...

The initial reaction is to take matters into your own hands. It's OK to think this, just don't act on it; it's sweeter when you don't have a hand in the payback.

Besides, a bunny's gotta work too.