Sometimes ...

Sometimes, you do things just because.

A whim. An impulse. A wild hair. Spite. Shits and grins. To see what happens.

Or, because it's right.

Righteousness is a powerful thing. You may not be in the right, but if you believe in the cause, in the situation, the circumstance, you'll feel righteous and therefore, it's easier to rationalize.

But this isn't about rationalizing. It's about doing the right thing.

We aren't always able to ask "why"; there are times when you follow a feeling, when you know in your heart that you can make a difference and you do it. Heart says "do it." Head says, "wait, are you sure?" Heart says, "all in good time." Head says, "fight the system."

When it's right, heart and head usually agree.

I don't generally change my mind. And mine is made up on this one. By any means necessary. I will call in the favors I need, I will ask -- on bended knee, if needed -- for help. I'm offering things I never thought I'd offer another person. I can only hope that when the time comes, the offer will be accepted. After all, there aren't many people I'd do absolutely anything for. What's a little money? What are a few possessions? For love and honor? A small price to pay. Dreams and the future, that's the priceless stuff.

It's the right thing to do. Seize the day. Live every moment. Yeah. Mikey's got the right idea.

This isn't about blind devotion or being taken advantage of. I wouldn't have offered if I didn't mean it. This is probably the wrong forum to voice any of this. It doesn't matter.

What's important is doing the right thing. Following your heart, your conscience.

Most importantly, be there.
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The song is one of my favorites from Social D. For where I am, it's fitting. For who I'm thinking of ... it's true. Nothing else matters. That is correct.

Social Distortion ~ Untitled
I'm heading down a lonely highway
I'm running down a one-way street
I wanna know are you going my way
is there some place quiet where we can meet
and friends they come and friends they go
but you were always by my side
And where it all ends I don't know
Don't cry no more just hold on tight

There was a time when I was desperate
Living in a town without a name
And when things got so dark and desolate
You taught me how to hide my shame

And kings and queens and millionaires
May never know what I have known
And thank the stars I'm the lucky one,
Thanks for the lessons that I have been shown

I feel rich, I feel power, and security
and when I'm weak, you are strong
Once in a lifetime, twice in eternity
And guess what? Nothing else matters anyway

[guitar solo]

I feel rich, I feel power, and security
and when I'm weak, you are strong
Once in a lifetime, twice in eternity
And guess what? Nothing else matters anyway

P.S. For the record: Not moving, not quitting job, not breaking up with Scott, no one cheated on anyone, none of that shit. I just needed an outlet for some of the shit that's been rattling around my head for the past week or so, and this is what writers do, however poorly this came off. Whatever.