Letting go

I'm pretty tired of the baggage I've been dragging around. I'm on the verge of something very wonderful (not to say things haven't been wonderful already) and in order for me to devote the proper attention to that, it's time to let go.

I've got a very wonderful man in my life and it's not fair to him for the ex to still affect me. I'm tired of thinking about the ex and I think I'm to the point where I can — and will — move on. That's not to say I haven't moved on; it's just time to get rid of the residuals and let it die. He's made no effort to be friendly, so I'm not losing out on anything.

So:

- no mentioning the ex unless I'm asked about it
- don't care about what he's doing
- remember he doesn't matter
- he's not a friend any more
- what he does has no bearing on my life
- let it go
- keep moving forward
- remember that I'm definitely better off

This probably won't happen as fast as I'd like it to, but like I said, the time has come. The more I'm able to do these things, the better it will be for all of us. And this isn't about denial or burying what I'm feeling. I've got a second chance here, I've got a guy who is so fabulous and wonderful that thinking about how much I care about him gets me emotional every time. I would do anything for him; there are no conditions, no measuring stick for how much either of us has to give. It just is. We're just us. And it's good.

Very good...

Posted: Mon - March 21, 2005 at 03:45 AM